I have lived in over twenty places, some better than others. There was the place infested with rats, whose walls were reinforced with flattened cardboard boxes. That was a quick stay! There was a former horse stable. There was a bitterly cold cottage in the mountains and flats in crime-ridden areas. When I came to this cottage, I was spent in every sense. The two years prior, I had broken my back again by slipping over in the street, and had three surgeries. I thought that it would be a good resting place, at least for a little while. Five years later, I am packing up and moving on, astounded at the intensity of the emotions I am experiencing.
In the little kitchen, I picture Serena, washing up, laughing as she does so. I picture her baby being cradled by my friend on the back porch. I envision Serena sitting at my dining table, as the children play. Every room has a memory of her. I need to leave this place. You know when it is time. I need a bigger place; one that is peaceful. I don’t want to leave her here. This place contains lingering memories of her. I would come home and find little gifts left by her near the front door. We would walk to the river. In the end, its the simple times we remember most, isn’t it? The grandiosity of balls and the like are wiped away over time. Its her being at my sink washing up… It makes that sink holy. The lounge is holy too. The mirror over the bathroom sink, where she would glance at herself. This beautiful, gentle woman.
A home is just a place. It is when precious souls imbue their energy onto a place that it comes to life, having a force-field of its own. I have laughed in this home, and I have cried more tears than I have ever thought possible. I have been terrified here, and I have come undone. I was told it wasn’t possible to have more children whilst living here, and I have had to craft a new life for myself. By leaving, I am saying it is done. I am ready! My memories of Serena are coming with me. See you on the other side of this move. xxx
What a beautiful and moving tribute, not just to a home, but to a person who made it so.
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Have a good move and a wonderful new beginning in your new home. xoxoxo
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Thankyou! I am thinking of you too!
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I got a bit of a break. Only moving in January now. Enjoying one more Xmas in this house.
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That is good! A fresh start in 2016 xxx I just discovered that it is set to be 39 degrees the day of our move! Yikes!
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Oh my, that’s hot! At least it’s not raining, though… I hate when you move and it’s raining. Stay hydrated and take breaks. Xxx
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Wishing you calm waters as you set sail..
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Thankyou my friend. Love your new name, by the way!
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Wishing you much joy as you begin this next chapter. May you have more laughter than tears in your new home. I’m praying for everything to go smoothly and for you to be settled in soon. Blessings, Sarah
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How lovely! Thankyou, Sarah.xxx
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