Update from Raphaela

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I received some devastating news last Friday. It came in the form of a group email, stating that my publisher had gone into receivership the previous Monday. I read and re-read the email, unable to take it in. I worked hard for two years, promoting my book and also planning eight further titles. The room spun as I tried to gather my thoughts. It meant that I wouldn’t receive royalties, and that the income I hoped to receive whilst home schooling my daughter wouldn’t be forthcoming. Life had to continue, even as I struggled to process what had occurred. I took my daughter to a friend’s home, as she was going to go to an ice-skating party with a bunch of girls. I didn’t talk about what had occurred. Instead this mum and I laughed about all manner of things until tears streamed from my eyes. It was such a release. I found it hard to leave and go back home to try to do the practical things necessary in this crisis.

On the Saturday, I attended a 40th birthday party for a courageous friend. I have watched her create a wonderful life for herself and her girls over the past eight years. It hasn’t been easy, but she has done it. There was a fire pit, and I sat mesmerized as the flames danced. I haven’t been sleeping since this occurred, feeling as though I am in limbo. I can’t do anything until the receiver’s get in touch and let the author’s know about their books. I am stunned that we were told in such a manner, and angry that the publisher didn’t live up to many parts of the contract. I had to trust that they would, as we have to do on many occasions. Trust a person’s word. Trust them on face value.

My daughter was asked if she could climb a glorious tree in a friend’s backyard and thread through lighting and mirror balls in preparation for a house-warming. She is an avid climber and had a ball helping out. I sat underneath this beautiful tree, and it reminded me of the one in The Magic Faraway Tree.

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The light shot out and changed colour every minute. It turned the tree into a kaleidoscope of luminescence. The kids chased each other and threw water balloons, and I listened to the band singing ‘Blackbird’ by The Beatles. At that particular moment, all was calm in my world. There were tears as I talked with friends, but there was also laughter. I feel the need to display to my daughter how one can bounce back from betrayal and disappointment. It helps to sit in a lush backyard with a beautiful community of people on a Spring evening. A galah joined us, and to our surprise, regaled us with a stream of profanities! It was perfect in its whimsy. I am so tired that I can’t think. I am so anxious that my stomach is in knots and my body is shaking. I feel a cacophony of emotions and dread the thought of starting again.

Start again I must, for there is a little girl watching; a child that I have to provide for. There are friends and magic trees and visiting galah’s with rude vocabularies. There is music and sunshine and giggling and water bombs.

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  1. I’m so sorry to hear of your disappointing news! I am praying for you and your little girl and that a solution will be found in all this mess to provide for you and your family. May you receive strength and grace to triumph. Blessings to you, Sarah

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  2. I am so sorry you were betrayed like that. Do you know where all the copies of your books are? I wonder whether you can acquire them and sell them for yourself or will the money be expected to go to the receivers? I hope that they are not at the book mulcher! It would be good if you could get as much for your books as possible to reimburse you for your time, effort and the trouble this publisher has caused.
    Big hugs!

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    1. Perhaps anyone who wants to read your story and still hasn’t got your book on their shelf should contact their local bookstore to see if they can still get it while still in circulation? The ISBN is 9780987297549. You still own the copyright of the work so all is not lost. Maybe you can publish in an electronic format if the publisher still holds the rights to the physical books? xxx

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  3. I understand that shock completely and the not understanding of your publisher’s behavior. They have obligations their clients rely on. I am so sorry about that. I hope there is soon a solution found!

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  4. I-am thinking of you. I can feel your devastation through your words. This post is beautiful and I-am about to read it for the third time. Try and get some rest Raphi, Hugs to you and your little one!

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